Hi, thanks for reading this even if you don’t talk to me at the moment for something I did or didnt do. I think it may mean you still care, but maybe don’t know how to get past yourself. I am learning. And I’m getting better even though I may feel that what ever i do is never enough or good enough. I am trying to be ok with myself in spite of all the terrible choices I have made and all the people I hurt along the way. And most days its hard, some days its impossible. I am learning to be nice to myself more than not. Most times I fail at that too. When I sing and am playing music, its one of the only times I can quiet my mind a little. And sometimes all the way for a while.